Okay vera, the song shall be for you too since you like it so much haha Mm St marg’s match today. Beat them, so we still stand a chance. (: Man I sound so discouraged “we still stand a chance”. OF COURSE WE STAND A CHANCE! WE’LL GET IN TO TOP FOUR! We just need to be more aggressive, train harder and pay attention to what jl says yup. Well today’s match was okay I guess. Didn’t make big mistakes, jl said. Yet I didn’t play spectacularly. Kinda got pissed off at #15 from st margs on court. Think I jabbed her with my elbow or smth but she started playing dirty first :/ And her attitude was quite scary, she kept “hugging” and pushing mee but I don’t know why, the __ are kidna biased I think. They gave athena a foul for nothing when athena didn’t do anything. And I don’t know. Ying Xin said it’s been like that since Miss Cheong’s time. The _)__ are all the same. I shall not put it all down here Just in case wrong people’re reading it :/ haha but i NEED to vent ahhh! Nvm, I remember mr teo said that all quarrels leave it on court. When you leave the court, have good sportsmanship and apologize and all. Mm but I kidna got injured today. I was going in for a layup and the girl rammed her knee into my thigh so I missed but the referee didn’t say anything still. Think it’s not a foul yup (: But think I injured the muscles in that place before and when that girl rammed her knee into it, the pain came back. Hope it goes away by the next training, the ice didn’t seem to work. No matter, it’ll all work out yup Oh and my jaw’s perfectly fine, no bruises or anything so YAYE Anyway, the ___ said I fouled the girl when all I did was to push in push out. And he raised a thumbs up sign to the #15. Think #15 is a really aggresive player. BUT I DIDN’T FOUL! So irritating. Nvm it’s all over (: We just gotta play a good game that’s all. Even if they foul us, we’ll just acept it. It’s their own prob if they wanna be bia***. Haha.

New town on wed and training tmr! (: I’m rather tired. Okay not rather, EXTREMELY tired. Though I can’t seem to sleep early. Then I end up sleeping in class boo. I should really try to change my habits haha. Oh and WELCOME HOME PIGGY! I’m so proud of you, you’ve started changing for the better already. And you’ve endured all throughout the two weeks and never gave up. I’m really really really proud of you (: We shall go running together one day okay.

Okay well guess I’ll post tmr. Jiayou sc c div! (:

St Marg’s match tmr yup (: We’re gonna do it you guys! We trained all our offence and defence with jl today so we can do it! We played our best on tue, it’s gonna be like that for ALL matches yeah?! (:

Man was really tired in school today. Slept in higher chinese and geog. Well i don’t know how i managed to sleep cause i tried to force myself not to sleep by sitting on my hands and leaning as far away form my desk as possible. But in the end, my head just dropped unto my chest and I fell asleep :/ Again and again oh man :/ Then teo threatened to not let me play on thurs poo. Anyway today during training, was feeling kinda weak and sick too. Then jl scolded me so I kinda “woke” up haha. Well we played 5 on 5 then jl left early cause smth happened to joy’s finger. Broken i think. Man it looked so painful we all almost wanted to cry. The finger was all out of place and we were all like “omg omgomg” and so close to crying then huishan was like “dont look dont look”. So we tried not to look. But jl had to bring joy to the hospital and we werent allowed to play anymore cause miss cheong told us to rest for tmr. We ran two rounds for warm dwn then we wtretched and watched the seniors play yup. After that went home with anna. Haha we were provoking ah jie from the bus window by eating gummies in her face And we started talking bout loads of stuff in the bus like the matches and all (: Then got home, rested, looked thru my shou ce a little ( man aint i hardworking?:D ) then started chatting to the rest online. AYE ANN YOU DIDNT HAVE TO TELL THEM I WAS SCARED BEFORE THE MATCH :/ Now what if they get scared too? I was trying to HELP them okay haha. Anyway you guys, we’re gonna do our best tomorrow yeah? And WIN. I LOVE ALL OF YOU (:

You’re not alone
together we stand
i’ll be by your side
you know i’ll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go you know I wont give in
no I wont give in.

Keep holding on
’cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i’m here for you, i’m here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through.

So far away I wish you were here
before it’s too late this could all disapear
before the doors close, this comes to an end
but with you by my side I will fight and defend i’ll fight and defend yeah yeah.

Keep holding on
’cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i’m here for you, i’m here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through.

Hear me when I say, when I say
I believe nothings gonna change, nothings gonna change destiny
what ever is ment to be
will work out perfectly yeah yeah yeah yeah
lalalalalalala…

Keep holding on
’cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i’m here for you, i’m here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through.

Keep holding on
’cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i’m here for you, i’m here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through.

This song’s posted for you sc c div! (: I LOVE YOU GUYS

Well we lost against raffles today. But it’s okay. We did our best, put in our all. And most of all, we didn’t break down or cry in fornt of them. No, we were cheerful, we were smiling, we were laughing, we gave them 3 cheers. We left the court with dignity. I AM SO PROUD OF ALL OF US! We played like hell, boxed out, listened to jl’s instructions, never got discouraged and fought for the ball. WE HAD A HUNGER FOR THE BALL. And most of all, we had the sc spirit. The first match of the season. So what if we lost? WE GAVE OUR ALL AND WE HAVE NO REGRETS.

I love sc c div (:

Tomorrow. First match of the season. First time we play raffles. AND WE ARE NOT GOING DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT. No wait, let me change that, WE ARE NOT GOING DOWN AT ALL. Like Sarah says, we’ll give them HELL. Make them defend like crazy everytime we get the ball. All the trainings, the rounds of “overtaking- sprints”, the fast breaks, the time limit for out da ban, the consecutive shots, the punishments we did, the suicides, the sweat, the tears, the injuries. It all boils down to TOMORROW. 40 minutes to show them what we’re made of. 40 mins. It’s not alot. Compared to the number of trainings, the hours of trainings we had, it’s not alot at all. But it’s the most precious 40 mins in our lives. Because with this 40 mins, we’re gonna show raffles what we’re made of. Who cares if their better? We’re gonna play like our lives depend on it! We’re gonna play our best with no fear and no regrets. We’re not gonna walk out of that court with the questions “why didn’t i do that during the match?” and “why was i so scared?” NO MORE. We’ve asked ourselves that too many times during the previous matches. Kept in our comfort zone. Tomorrow is the time to show them what we’ve been training for this 1 and a half years. Even if we don’t win, we will leave with our heads high, because we will have no regrets. One year and a half. Sarah asked us to think about our first training. I remember mine. I remember all of us running towards the ball, crowding towards one place, and playing like silly kids. I remember our first lay ups. They were so bad that they rocketed off the board. Then Nan jl came and trained our basics and layups. They got better and better.I remember our first underbasket, and the number of underbaskets we did during the june holidays last year. The number of shots they set for us in the outdoor court in the hot sun. The consecutives shots they gave us. I remember the happiness when we finally reached our goal.I remember our first freethrow. Most of us were so weak the ball barely hit the rim. Others were so strong that the ball flew over the board (: Now look at us. WE CAN GET IT IN. And I remember we did everything as a team. The running, the shots, the counting especially. I remember the seniors asking us to sprint cause we didnt count. They said ” in a match, we have to scream our number! we’ll scare them away that way!” And now its here isn’t it? Our very first match. It seemed like yesterday we were all at kap saying “omg c div is next year, i wonder how its gonna be like”. NO MORE. NO MORE WONDERING. WE CREATE OUR DESTINY. WE CREATE THE SCORE. We’re gonna fight and fight and fight and show them what sc’s made of! I remember so many other people mocking us, saying that we were weak and we couldnt make it. Now what have we to show? WE HAVE THE TEAM, WE HAVE THE TRAININGS, WE HAD MISS CHEONG, WE HAD THE OTHER JC SENIORS, WE HAD JL, WE HAD THE SENIORS. And their all behind us, supporting us. That’s what we have to show. The sc spirit. We will not go down without a fight. We will do it. We will make them proud. I remember the look on the seniors faces when they won rgs. It was barely four months ago. The time has passed so quickly and now its our time to face rgs. WE WILL DO THEM PROUD. FOR THE SCHOOL, FOR THE TEAM, FOR THE SENIORS, FOR JIAO LIAN, FOR THE LOVE OF SCGS BASKETBALL.

We are NOT going down.

Fuck I don’t know why it feels this way. Everything you said was bull shit. Thought it was all over but it ain’t and I can’t concentrate on anything. Damn gotta get it outta my head but i cant and its so irritating. Wish I could turn back time and avoid everything that built up to now. Those were all lies, tried to face up to the truth but it hurts and I can’t let go of everything that happened. Don’t know why I waited so long i’m such an idiot. And now i realise i waited for nothing. I know being angry or upset or hurt doesnt help but i’ve been trying to control my emotions so much that i feel like im gonna burst anytime. And it doesn’t matter a bit to you. Yeah are you having fun now? Bet you are, just that I don’t wanna be your plaything anymore.

it’s time to say goodbye

Two days to go. Man now I’m getting nervous. I don’t think I play well enough. Getting freaked out. Keep telling myself that it’s all okay, but we can do it as a team but I get odd boosts of confidence that die down quickly :/ Gotta get our heads in the game. Didn’t really concentrate during mass today. Think I just spent the time thinking about tuesday. Okay no matter what, gotta concentrate and play properly. The whole team’s there for me, and I gotta be there for them.

Right enough of this nervous post, aint gonna help anything. I shall post song lyrics instead

Whoa, whoa

Just when you learned the game of life
All the rules seen arent right
Whoa, whoa go figure

It seems so wrong to even try
But taking a chance never felt so right
Whoa, whoa go figure

You have a dream
You wanna be
The center of the story
Just when you think its going
You find a way to keep it going on

Sometimes you fall before you fly
Sometimes you laugh when you should cry
Go figure
When things got messed up
You wanted to give up
Nothing seemed right but turned out fine
Go figure, go figure
Whoa, whoa

It’s so dangerous to play it safe
You get what you want by giving it away
Whoa, whoa go figure
Go figure

Your trying so hard to be someone else
When all you needed to be was yourself
Whoa, whoa go figure
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Not everything you’ve wanted seems
It’s never just one meaning
When life starts making sense
The world is upside down again

Sometimes you fall before you fly
Sometimes you laugh when you should cry
Go figure, go figure
When things got messed up
You wanted to give up
Nothing seemed right but turned out fine
Go figure, go figure

Whoa, whoa, go figure
Whoa, whoa

Did you really think your destiny was a one way street
You gotta be ready for anything
Just set your whole life free, yeah

Sometimes you fall before you fly
Sometimes you laugh when you should cry
Go figure, go figure
When things got messed up
You wanted to give up
Nothing seemed right but turned out fine
Go figure, go figure

Sometimes you fall before you fly
Sometimes you laugh when you should cry
Go figure
When things got messed up
You wanted to give up
Nothing seemed right but turned out fine yeah, yeah
Go figure, go figure

Whoa, whoa go figure
Whoa, whoa go figure

Yup and it kinda makes sense too haha (:

Tigger! Aluminium’s 3+ not 2+! HAHA. My memory’s damn screwed now. Or maybe it’s cause I didn’t revise :/ Ahwells kidna expecting to do badly for the science test on monday heh. What with all the trainings and trips, didn’t have time to squeeze any minute of revision haha. Ohwells who cares, season’s starting soon. Wait, it aint starting soon, it’s starting VERY soon. Playing raffles in THREE days time. You’re not the only one freaking out ze! Haha. Think ah jie didn’t really bother about studying either :/ And i still have the heymath stuff to complete. The questions are so damn irritating. Heh though they’re easy but it kinda requires you to do the cross multiplication thing. Ahh twenty questions per test! Only one day to go! Somehow, I have to squeeze revision AND heymath tests all in one day :/ I have BADD time management man. Alright I shall make a mid year resolution haha. Gonna study like crazy once the season’s over and hopefully use the final years to pull up all my grades yup (: Though they’re not exactly bad right now, it’s just higher chinese. But we’re so gonna fail project work man. Our group hasnt met up for even one meeting. And steph wants to go to ubin! It’s gonna be mission impossible 4 haha.

Jl said our defence improved today! Though I cant really feel the difference. Maybe I still play as bad as ever but the team’s pulling me ahead (: It’s TEAMWORK and we’re gonna play our best on tue as a team. Win together, lose together, teammates (think that’s from high school musical haha) But it’s TRUE! SEE? You guys should be MOTIVATED by my words mwahahaha *grins* Well at least ze was ( i think). Or maybe she just got worked up ): Poo haha. Alright I’m crapping badly here. Just that the time flew really quickly. And it’s starting so soon. I’m kinda looking around me and thinkin ” oh my gosh, it’s already june and season starts in three days” I dont know if im prepared but we gotta have mental strength (: No matter what, we’ll all play our best! Jiayou sc c div!

Okay back to blogging again. Anna, you’re supposedto “block” too! HAHA. Okay okay I heard wrong poo :/ Haha. Mm training today was quite okay. Something was terribly wrong with my stomach though. Started hurting really badly when I ran warmups. Then when we did the drills, it felt so bad that i couldnt run. At first thought it was stitch or smth. Then I realised stitches didnt feel that way :/ Ahwells wish I could have run faster but my stupid stomach just kept making me wanna collapse and it affected my breathing also. it’s damn weird. I wanna heal it and then play properly. At least my knee’s much better (: Only hurts sometimes and it didn’t hurt today yaye Hmm raffles match on the 26th. I don’t think I’m good enough yet, and there’s only a few more trngs before the 26th. We gotta do our best! We’ve been dreaming of this since last year, when raffles beat the 2006 sec 4s in their b div. Valerie’s batch. And they were so close to winning. But the raffles c div players mocked us. That was when all of us swore to win for the sec 4s and beat the players who called and our seniors us losers. We’ll SHOW them we arent losers man! And now in a few days, we’re gonna be playing them. The match we’ve all been thinking about, dreaming about. We’re gonna do it man. No matter what happens, we’ll play our best and show them that we aint objects of their mockery (: GO SC C DIV. I love the team (:

Well thank you my dear chels and ah jie for helping me with THAT problem (: I’M GETTING OVER IT,TRUST ME (: Ahh I feel so damn tired now. Reached home and just collapsed on my bed after lunch. Slept for about 2 and a half hours then woke up cause of all the call heh. Then slept at 6 again. Heh. Training tmr again. Hope to regain my strength and all before tmr. My stupid stomach :/ Ahwells anyway jie, have more confidence and dont think too much okay. Don’t be afriad, we’re all behind you yeah (: I’m trying to get over it, so should you. Sarang haeyo jie “jiaCHU”

Okay think I’ll go watch a video now (: Gotta finish all before school starts yup.Heh they’re ruining my eyes!

Training in one hour and 20 mins time! (: Woke up real early today. It’s only 7.40 now (: Didn’t wanna be late for training heh. Hope I’m not too behind in the 2-3 defence or any offence of any sort. I’m gonna catch up today!(:

Right, my stomach’s feeling all weird now :/ But ain’t gonna eat, don’t wanna get a stitch later. Man regina wants me to eat bachang. EWW. It’s damn oily and gross heh. Actually, it’s gross when it’s all cold I guess. Haha. Like that time when I ate it in the mrt waiting for the anglican match yup. Okay gonna go off soon. Post later on. BYE