Ah crap, I feel horrible now. Hope I can go to school tomorrow. If she realises i’m sick, i won’t be able to train on fri and maybe not even bale to go for pvp on sat :/ Mm guess it’ll be okay. Got mar back from mr lau already haha. Khoon said he was really amusing. Think anyone who’s not used to him’d feel that way. But we get lessons from him almost everyday haha. So we’re used to his “amusing-ness” (:

I think i’m gonna sleep now. My body feels….weird :/

I think I’m officially sick now hahaha. Poor anna’s sick too! :/ Take care anna! (: Nvm, like i told ah jie, I’m STRONG I’m gonna get well in time for sat yeah man! PVP on sat and east coast park at night ( i think). Mm yup english results weren’t as bad as i imagined heh. But I totally screwed history test today. :/ Was taking my own sweet time and was trying not to fall asleep when miss kavita said “20 more mins”. Then i realised I had two questions left to complete hahaha. So my writing got from messy to really messy to extremely messy, and at the last minute, totally atrocious :/ *poof* But ahwells luckily I managed to write most of the important points. Crapped a lot about housing and poverty :/ And I tried to link everything to unemployment haha. Then I realised the riots were by EMPLOYED people and I almost swore heh.

Captain’s ball interclass during assembly (: We played only two games, against gr and pe. And while we were waiting for our turn to play, melissa khor, chels and me started talking about LOADS OF STUFF Haha i shadn’t post it here, chelsea’ll kill me. But it was kinda interesting haha, I’m pretty backdated, been concentrating too much on practicing basketball that I didn’t really find out much.Mm but ohwell haha (: Training was fun heehee. Did the usual stuff then did 5 passes full court lay ups and finally played 5 on 5 heh. It was really realy fun haha. Oh and inuyasha’s really funny hahaha.

Mm yeah think I’m gonna go watch the movie now (: Rather tired too, I’M GONNA SLEEP EARLY TODAY Yay (: Animes arent boring tigger! Stupid girl hahahaha (:

I’m not strong enough to go through al this shit myself. And I can’t turn to others cause I don’t wanna make them biased and I don’t wanna create any more problems. It’s rather hard isn’t it? Everytime things feel like they’re going okay then something turns up again. But all this trials are minor compared to what others are facing out there. No time to wallow in self pity or anything. Blogging all of this seems like a stupid thing to do but what else is there? Diaries’ll be found by my dear mother at home. It’s lucky she doesn’t know about blogs. I don’t know what to do actually. For the first time, I’m working hard for something. But I think it’s causing conflicts. Maybe I’m really not good enough and others deserve much better than what I’m getting now. Maybe if its that way, then I better work harder. I don’t know why everyone’s so strained now. It’s rather scary and horrid. I’m not sure if I did anything wrong. It’s kinda scary, I just wish everyone’d say what they wanted to say and not keep anything in.

They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder. Think it’s kinda true, ever since you left, I’ve been missing your unbiased advice and judgement, your comfort, and the way you always make me laugh no matter what. Next friday seems a long way away and I might not have time to see you. Think i’ve always taken you for granted, even when you were always there for me. But I guess I’m consoled, I haven’t actually lost you yet. Only temporarily while you go off to train to be green like the leaves and bushes and all haha (: Camouflage I mean. Come back soon okay (:

Well I guess things will get better soon enough. I hope it will (:

Drinking milo now! The weather’s really cold, been raining all day.Milo 3 in 1 tastes kinda.. milky :/ Think the fuze one’s NICER Hahaha supposed to be studying for history now but it’s getting real boring. I DO NOT like studying and that’s that. *Poof* Let’s see, the kempeitai was sent by the Japanese to control the people of singapore. And they used fear to control them. Then they did the sook ching thing where they shot people on beaches, and then propoganda, and rationing. And then the British returned! Okay that’s about all I remembered haha.

Mm think I screwed english oral yesterday. Mixed up right with left so I described left as right. :/ And when I made my way to the right and realised I described left wrongly, my mind just went “oh shit” and I stared at the paper dumbly :/ Ahh well can’t do anything about it now, it’s over (: Mm then made my way down to the court after that and we trained a bit with jl before we played game with teo. But most of us were starving cause we didn’t eat lunch. I only had chocolate and chengteng (chengteng?) hahah. So after we played, nazi, khoon and me rushed to 7-11 cause we had to be back in school by 6 and it was already about 5 something. Met Ying Xin and some other sec 4 basketballers at the bus stop and they asked us about the match that night but we didn’t really answer them cause we had to rush into 960. Rushed to 7-11 and back. I bought nasi lemak! And paus for papa chan and anna (: Reached school just in time to eat our nasi lemak and watch them play a last game before we left for the sbc place at geylang. The journey was really really long! Haha and khoon, anna, nazi and me were standing with joy, debra and charmaine and they were damn funny Joy’s very amusing heh. They wanted to do stomp so they were going “whoa” “whoa”. *grins* Damn funny.

Yup we reached the place around 7 i think. Changed and warmed up and the match started at 7.30. We lost the first two, came to a draw at the third, and won the last three! So we won overall yaye! But they stopped alot cause the referees were new I think so they kept stopping. Haha oh there was once lisa chan and me played the same time and we were both wearing 12! Cause Lisa wore her sec 1 jersey cause Sarah’s sec 2 jersey number was chan’s sec 2 jersey number. So I was a black 12 and she was a red 12 When there was once the referee gave me a free throw, and he said number 12, chan and me looked at each other and wondered “which 12?” Funny

Match ended around 9.30 (: Left the place around 10 or so. Oh the vending machine there’s really cool! You can pay for the drinks with ez-link card! Never seen it before, all of us were so excited about it heh. And Joy said ” you guys look like you’ve never seen a vending machine before” Hahaha. Lisa’s dad came kinda late so we stayed with her cause she was alone and everyone’d left already. By the time I got home it was about 11 something and I was dead tired and HUNGRY :/ So weird, during the match, my nasi lemak felt like it hadn’t digested yet but when I got home, I was terribly terribly hungry. Heh something’s up with my tummy. Foraged in the fridged for something to eat and found my bottle of jelly beans! Was really tempted to eat them so I ate a coconut flavoured one heehee. Then ate oreos and milk and washed up. Wanted to read a bit but fell asleep straightaway :/ Haha yup so that was yesterday. I think i’m kinda long winded :/ But I wanna remember every detail that happens so I shall post everything Ahwells getting kinda dark and cold here. Must be the rain (: Wonder how you’re doing in the jungle with all the rain. Take care of yourself piggy! Think I’m gonna watch a video now, g’bye!

Anything is possible, if you have the courage to try. (: Haha that line suddenly popped into my head, maybe cause I was thinking of what jl told us the other time. Courage to try. And the will to carry on even if people think you can’t do it. Wish the season wasn’t over. Everything seems rather dull now. Except for training I mean, though kinda wish there were more 5 on 5s. I’m not good yet, don’t know how to look at the game very well yet, but I’ll learn in time. Guess for now I’ll have to practice what mr teo taught us (:

The henna thing’s coming off! Hahaha lao shi said it actually repelled mosquitoes and I was like “REALLY? 0.0″ Cool eh? Heh. Put more henna so we wont get bitten at the court! Oh yeah science practical today. Think we all screwed it man! Can’t seem to work in the lab. *grins* Firstly, I remembered mr lau saying that we had to do everything on our own during the practical so I was trying to turn on a bunsen burner while holding unto a lighted match hahaha. Then I reached over and forgetting that I had my arm on top of the bunsen burner, turned on the gas -.- So the match got caught in the gas and the flame shot out unto my hand hahaha. I was like “AHH!” And then unknowingly, I pushed my worksheet unto the tile and most of the iodine spilled on the paper -.- So now my test paper’s blue black (is there supposed to be STARCH in paper?) and and and, I forgot to dry my testtube so when I put the sample in, it got diluted and I didn’t pour it properly so most of the sample fell into the sink :/ So had to keep asking Mr Lau for new samples Man I really dont like science prac haha. Most of us were doing things we weren’t supposed to do, shadnt write it here it’s against the rules Mm and we had new south wales math competition in the afternoon. Tigger forgot that it wasn’t a test! So she actually did until the last minute! Woah haha ah jie just slacked the whole time and I tried to sleep though it was really cold and all heh.

Training was fine, did the usual thing. Then 5 on 5. I didn’t ba wo my shots. And kept taking up Nad’s space :/ Forgot that tigger wasn’t on our team too haha. So I didn’t defend her. Mm yup. Nothing else to post about I guess, or maybe I’m just too lazy to write somemore haha (: Gotta do the pushups and all now yup. G’bye

Mm I’m really full now :/ Regina cooks really great dinners man (: Gonna miss her when she goes back this year. Well can’t be helped,this’s all part of life. Somehow, when I think of how it’s gonna be when I’m all grown up, I can’t wait to grow up, yet I wanna stay the way I am still. Well it’s all part of growing up (:

Guess I’ll start my pushups and all at 8. Science practical tmr, and the new wouth wales math too. Ah jie’s class’s doing new south wales with us!YAYE So tigger, ah jie, anna and me can do the test together! Anna better not scold me if I sleep during the test ): Haha I bet ah jie’ll sleep too so yup! (: But somehow, if I do it badly, then mrs _ _ _ _ _     _ _ _ ’ll get a hold over me. Maybe I’ll do it properly and show her that she’s wrong. Ahewlls I’ll decide tmr haha. Either way, I really don’t like her. Haha I hope it rains tmr. Then we can stay at the court for a longer time and play 3 on 3 and we don’t have to go for flag raising! Though it’s so darn cold when it rains :/ Hahaha.Training tmr yeah! (: Mr teo wants us to play soccer, says it’ll strengthen our legs? I can’t play soccer for nuts, think its rather weird haha but nvm, we’ll give it a try man. There’s no such word as “cannot” (: we CAN do it yup!Okay time to do my pushups. food might have digested (i think) haha (:

Nazi’s birthday today! Happy birthday dear nazi! Sorry we didn’t get you anything yet, I promise I’ll get you smth as soon as possible yeah! (: Love you loads! You’re the best centre in the world!(: The irreplacable beyonce! WE LOVE YOU BABE <3

I’m banned from using ebuddy! Haha but heck, no one’s gonna stop me anyway (: It was a stupid bet anyway. Well choir concert! It was really good, pity they didnt get to use the victoria concert hall. Last year was really good too yup. Chels, I DO NOT LOOK FEMININE OKAY. Hahaha fei looked really girl too, she just came from the netball carnival or smth. And we gave van bananas! Ohman she’s really gonna go to vjc, dont leave dear van! ): We all don’t want you to leave scgs :/ Well anyway it’s your choice but really, PLEASE DONT GO ): Sc gives you a really good education too! And all your friends’re here too! C’mon man, you gotta admit that sc’s the best sch. No other sch’s gonna replace sc. Well it’s your choice. But we’ll really really miss you :/

Yeah before the choir concert, went out with azure phoenix. Hahaha (: Still can’t forget what we were two years ago (: the phoenix and the wolf. Mm and you’ve really really changed (: Had fun, oh and we bought loads of breadtalk bread but didn’t finish it in the end. Just ate my butter and sugar bread. Oh and we drank coffee bean and ate the CHEESECAKE! First time I tried it, it’s really good Ahh you shouldnt waste your money like that. Save it for later (: But really, you know how much I appreciate you being there for me ytd when you know what happened. Thanks a lot (:

Played hockey during pe today. Vera and tigger did the most retarded things hahaha.VeROW wanted to hit the ball but in the end, she ended up swinging her hockey stick through air hahaha.Plus tigger kept stealing the ball from me ahh. I can’t play hockey for nuts. Think i might fail the hockey test thing :/ Haha i DO NOT like hockey. And that’s that, no matter what you say wont change my mind tigger

Yup so that’s about all for today. Training was great as usual. think we’re gonna have a talk with the sec ones on what? Wed? I dont know, they were really mean to tigger, they have no right to be. Ahwells okay gonna go do my pushups now (: g’bye

Haha nick’s right. Time someone knocked sense into me, thanks a lot man! (: Now time to focus on other things, but I’m not gonna quit basketball haha, you’re really mean you know. Anyway we’re doing shooting tmr during training And my henna painting hasnt come off yet. My mother actually thought it was smth bvad, like i tatooed myself or smth -.- Haha if i had tatooed myself, wld i tattoo my HAND? Such an obvious place haha. No common sense ah wells (: I don’t have to care about how others think man! I am me, and yup! haha. Arms aching, still got 30 pushups left over from ytd, And 80 crunches and 100 jumps. And math test tmr! I did three ques on my assessment book! So no one can say I didn’t study. Hopefully I dont make careless mistakes tmr. Good time to sleep though, two periods math test. Finish quickly then sleep yay. Alright gonna watch national treasure, it’s a real cool show. G’bye! (:

Training today was a blast! It was really fun, did loads of passing and lay ups and striding and all. Then we had to go up and down four flights of steps in 30 secs. Every one second over shot ten pushups yup Mm so now we’re gonna be training with size 7 balls, builds our strength and all. Then when we switch back to size 6 balls, mr teo says it’ll be no problem (: Anyway first time I did the stairs thing, overshot by one sec cause teo said we weren’t allowed to skip steps or jump down steps. But when we were allowed to do all that, I overshot by 3 secs :/ Think it was cause I crashed against the railing on the way up, got a bruise on my thigh now but that’s okay. Haha. Oh we had to bang the door with our hands when we reached the top, weird and painful :/ Yup then we did passing and lay ups, the ones wehre mr teo got us to stride. It was really fun! (: And I liked the passing too. Mm monday we’re gonna train shooting, can’t wait for that (: Actually, I just can’t wait to become a really really good player. I’m gonna work hard and become good, no wait not good, very very good. It all comes with hard work so I’ll try my best. My moving isnt really good yet but I’ll do the jumping and all so I’ll get better. 30 more pushups to go, and I haven’t finished my crunches yet. No worry I’ll finish it tonight! Oh I think inuyasha’s showing on arts central again! (: Man have I missed Inuyasha, and his adventures with Kagome and the rest. Heh okay now I’m sounding weird. But ahwells (:

Choir concert tmr! Oh and gonna go out before that, can’t wait don’t know what time the concert’ll end though, when I come back there might not be enough time for the push ups and crunches and the jumping. But nevermind, I wont think ahead first hahaha Oh yeah today during recess, the six of us, yao tigger, papachan, anna, ah jie and me went to fill up the forms for the contest htingy and we got a coupon! For henna! (is that how it’s spelled?)hahaha Yeah and we wrote our jersey numbers and drew a basektball on our hand in henna painting. And during lit, tigger kept looking at her henna so miss chua was staring at her. HAHA i bet she thought you were weird tigger! Yup and after school we had the racial harmony day concert, almost fell asleep. Oh and we were sitting directly under the aircon so it was really really cold :/ And I kept looking around for anyone with a sweater but couldnt find anyone so had to sit in the cold for one hour haha. Oh and 2CO won second in the costume thing! We were all like “HUH?We won second? Are you sure?” Cause none of us were expecting it. And during the fashion parade, when __ paraded,tigger kept laughing then when i looked at her, I couldnt help laughing too. though it wasn’t very nice :/ Mm and after school, the sec 3s talked to us for a while about outside influences. And Zi Bing kept saying my face looked red :/ But really, I’m innocent (: Didn’t exchange numbers or anything so yup. That’s about it I guess.Inuyasha tonight! (i think heh)

In a perfect world, this could never happen

in a perfect world, you’d still be here

And it makes no sense, I could just pick up the pieces

But to you, this means nothing, nothing at all

you feel nothing, nothing at all

YAYE finally managed to send tigger the history project! I feel damn accomplished hahaha. Spent about an hour on it :/ Though it’s not much cause I was kinda multitasking, had to cut loads of things out and see the hdb blog and all heh  But I DID IT. Haha okay okay enough self praise :/

Training tmr (: Personal skills, mr teo said. Really can’t wait! (: Already set my goal, now the only thing to do is to train SMART, and hard yup. Well ate kfc and pizza for dinner, how sinful. Bet the green tea aint gona help either. Ahhwells mind over matter! I WON’T THINK OF WHAT I ATE FOR DINNER! (okay that’s inappropriately used i know hahaha)

Yeah well today was pretty boring, I DIDN’T SLEEP DURING HIGHER CHINESE……only cause there was zi du :/ Heh. Finished it real quickly then decided to leave the classroom. The tense atmosphere was kinda freaky, hate it when it goes all quiet during a test or smth haha. By the time I returned, Fei had already handed up my paper for me and lesson ended Good way to kill time actually haha. Yup and after chinese, there was math :/ Well forgive the expression, I don’t particularly dislike the subject. It’s just, ah wells. Ain’t worth getting angry over yeah. Especially if I might get banned from basketball. :/ So gotta be, as tigger quotes, “GUAI POOOOOOO”. wth haha. Mm well guess I’ll end here. Kinda sleepy now, though didn’t do much today. G’bye! (: