Yesterday was the last training for this term. Man,Mr Teo said he’d make us much better players soon but I’m actually beginning to doubt it. Some days its easy to go on and keep working hard but on others, i just feel like giving up. My improvement’s really really slow and I know nobody can help me but myself. But I think it’s going nowhere. Ahh enough of this.

Guess I’m supposed to start studying for eoys but it’s kinda difficult to get in the habit of studying without slacking off and all. They’re offering a new combination, elective lit and triple science or smth like that. But still, I think i wanna take full lit. Mm teacher’s day this friday (: Same day we’re gonna have to do hip hop :/ Hahaha verow and tigger and me were struggling through the steps during recess. Man, we ponned so many practices already cause we’d wanted to shoot haha. The other day, Mrs Khong started talking about how badly we sat cause we knew we had shorts inside our skirts and how short our skirts were so it revealed our shorts and looked awful. It was kinda amusing haha. Maybe I should learn to sit like a little lady heh.Anyway think she’s right cause this scary unknown guy added me on msn and started talkin about how he liked to look under the skirts of girls in girls school cause they always sat with their legs open. Jeez! I was so freaked out -.- Stupid perverts yuck. *shudders*

Ahh HUIYING! Don’t tell me she’s cute. She isn’t!! :/ Hahahaha but the virus thing’s FUNNY.HAHA. The poison’s spreading hahahahahaha.

Today stayed back after school for a while with the rest for a little self training yup (: Mm they’re selling yoghurt icecream again heh. Maybe they’ll come on monday. Hmm well I’m TIRED. Haha think I’ve been thinking too much again. And nope, I’m not upset or anything. Just tired. Yup everything’s kinda flooding in again (: Anyway, it WAS fun while it lasted so that’s that heh.

Today, Mr Teo let us watch Resident Evil during CE. It was horribly terribly bloody. At first, I thought it’d be a horror movie or smth cause I  hadn’t watched it before. But when everyone started to get killed, I thought it’d be a show like Final Destination. Actually, I think Final Destination’s bloodier cause they film all the remains of people after they die in the most gruesome way. But the laser thing from Resident Evil was just, eww. It wasnt so bad at first but when the guy got cut into a million triangular peices by the laser, my eyes just started tearing and my hair stood on its ends. :/ I dont know how directors can think of such horrible ways for people to die but I guess that’s what attracts people to watch such movies. The way the woman’s head slid off her neck, and the startled look in her eyes, it was just really sad.

Gonna go kayaking tmr (: Jie and tigger and anna’s gonna go too. Some health week activity. Hmm tigger and jie’re both gonna feel rather um hampered I guess *grins* But dont worry, I’ll TRY not to splash you guys heh.

Yesterday
I waited for your friends to walk away
So I could say just what I mean

I know we’re moving fast
We’re running from the past
I’m holding on before it fades away

Could it be that maybe it’s our first mistake
And Baby that’s alright
It’s crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There’s a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that’s the reason why
When you’re young you fall in love

Standing still
I’m waiting round to see if this is real
Cause I feel like I’m asleep
I’ll open up my eyes
Cause you might be the type
Of girl that makes me dream when I’m awake

Could it be that maybe it’s our first mistake
And baby that’s alright
It’s crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There’s a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that’s the reason why
When you’re young you fall in love

So tell me can this really work
Or will we end up getting hurt
Is this love or myth
So tell me are you in for this
There’s so much than we can see
More than you
More than me
It takes two to believe

Maybe it’s our first mistake
And baby that’s alright
It’s crazy how we lost ourselves tonight

Maybe it’s our first mistake
And baby that’s alright
It’s crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There’s a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that’s the reason why
When you’re young you fall in love

That’s the reason why when you’re young you fall in love
That’s the reason why when you’re young you fall in love

Man sometimes I hate being an only child. All the pressure, hopes and expectations fall unto me and I can’t make any mistake. Yeah they mean well, but sometimes they want me to be such a perfect daughter that my decisions aren’t really considered. Ahh nevermind, that’s the way it is I guess. Shouldnt grumble,i’m really lucky compared to others.

Haha vera, steph and tigger were really hyper today, damn funny. Post about it another time, gtg do my pushups now! (: G’bye

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING JIE! <3

Haha now you’re officially fourteen and I’m the only one amongst you 3 that’s 13 :/ Oh and get well soon anna dear! You looked really terrible and sick, drink more water yeah (: I’ll give you kit kat when you’re well again haha Mm went out to celebrate jie’s birhtday yesterday and watched secret yay. It was really really really good. The ending was sad though. But loved the movie yup haha. Then we went to eat swensens after buying porridge for anna cause she was sick. Stubborn girl, still dont wanna go home -.- Take care of yourself! Well yup we went to swensens and ate loads plus oddered a brownie with ice cream with a candle stuck on top for ah jie Cause phoenix said the cakes werent nice. And we ate the banana crumble too. Damn good. I felt so guilty :/ Anyway, thanks for the lunch phoenix!

Today, verow, steph and tigger came over to do math project haha. Just one shape -.- Haha but it was fun. Watched high school musical and they kept insisting that my pig had a  *coughs* thing and it was damn gross -.- hahaha plus verow wanted to fart on my pillow and I was damn grossed out. You stupid girl! Hahaha. And tigger and me kept telling each other how good it’d be if we had a guy who could play basketball, sing and dance as well as troy haha. One in a million man. How irritating, no guy can climb up to my balcony and sing to me like troy cause im on the sixth floor -.- They’d fall and die hahahah. But that’s okay haha it’d be kinda creepy too. Mm yup gonna do the pushups and everything later. Didnt do it yesterday cause went out to aunty’s house to watch fireworks haha (: They weren’t as good as last year’s but oh well, it was fun. Well gonna go eat laksa now haha (: G’bye!

Just finished reading mov! Phew, I never thought i’d start taking lit so seriously. But I’d better work hard for lit now since I wanna take full lit haha. I’m gonna try to start changing somehow. Guess I know most of my faults now. I can’t promise to change straightaway, some habits are hard to change, but I promise that I’ll try my very best. I’m sorry if I was selfish or don’t carish and all the rest. And maybe apologizing won’t work so I’m gonna show that I mean it. Tigger, yao, sorry I really annoyed you last time. I don’t think you guys are that sensitive. I’m at fault too. And i’m sorry to the rest of you guys too.Think I should quieten down a little :/ and nope, i’m not dwelling on what happened. I just wanna try to change to become a better person.

Ahh I think mel was damn funny this morning haha. “Do you know the aircon joke?” WTH -.- HAHAHA. I thought she’d gone crazy or smth when she kept repeating herself hahaha. Had ting xie today, I didn’t know lao shi was gonna test the whole sentences so I didn’t really bother to study :/ Whoopsie. But that’s okay, it’s already gone by. Come to think of it, time’s passing really quickly. Too quickly actually. Makes me realise that I ought to treasure every day, everyone, everything. Maybe most of us’re too busy or caught up in the rush of everyday life. New challenges, new friends, new problems, new successes, the list goes on. I think you’re right dear “phoenix”, sometimes we gotta just sit back and reflect and remember to be thankful for everything we’ve got.

Got a free day tmr haha (: no tuitions, nothing. Gonna stay back and shoot and maybe I might go through lit. Oh and miss kavita said the last history test wasn’t gonna be counted in the CA. Hahaha could hear everyone going “omg PHEW”. We presented out history project too, ours was kinda short but that’s okay. (: Think I’ll stop here. Got some things left to do (:

so baby just say goodbye

I’m back from phuket! Haha actually arrived home yesterday at 2.30am (: Yup and I THINK I’m tanner. Today,Sarah tan asked me why I was so black. Eek hope I’m not that dark heh. But the stay in phuket was fun. Learnt to play water volleyball! (or whatever it’s called) Dad taught me, he’s really good at it. Still kinda clumsy with a ball in water but that’s okay (: Ate and shopped loads. Kurin was kinda disappointed cause the stores in Central closed so early and the lady chased them outta a store she liked haha. Poor thing. I didn’t get to buy much from Central too. Was actually eyeing this adidas shirt but there wasn’t enough time so ohwells (: I got loads of stuff from Lotus and patong beach though. Bought a new sweater from body glove And shirts and all. They’re really cheap. Mm swam in the sea too and we picked loads of seashells The tide’s kinda high though cause it’s monsoon season. Kurin and I were walking along the beach near some rocks and the tide just gushed in and left us nowhere to go cause the only way out was to climb the rocks :/ And we were kinda freaked out cause the tide just kept gushing in without stopping. But in the end we just climbed the rocks All in all, the trip kinda helped me clear my mind bout things and get away from all the distractions and all.

Jie’s birthday this sunday! Think we’re going out on saturday to watch secret.Most of them’ve watched it already. Ahh stop telling me the story stupid veROW and tigger! :/ You guys suckkkk haha (: Yes and I know ah jie’s gonna say that I chew eh? Haha my math teacher called me germs today. Kinda amusing actually. Lisa Chan laughed her head off when I told her hahaha. And nope, I don’t think the other girls are getting influenced by me (: The other basketballers’re perfectly hardworking even though they’ve spent most of their time with me heh. Apart from my partner in crime haha (you know who you are). But you gotta buck up and work hard okay! (: Or else other people will start calling me germs too hahaha.

Trained with the b div today. Was really really really thirsty and bitter stuff kept coming up my throat but at least we all REN-ed togehter! (: Played 5 on 5 after that. Think I played really crappily but I’ll practice my shooting tmr so no matter. Step by step yup,that’s what jl said. Yeah well, think I’m gonna end here. Nothing much more to post about haha. G’bye!

Today is gonna be the day
That they’re gonna throw it back to you
By now you should’ve somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don’t believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I’m sure you’ve heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don’t believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don’t know how

Because maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You’re my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they’ll never throw it back to you
By now you should’ve somehow
Realized what you’re not to do
I don’t believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don’t know how

I said maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You’re my wonderwall

I said maybe
You’re gonna be the one who saves me?
And after an
You’re my wonderwall

Said maybe
You’re gonna be the one that saves me
You’re gonna be the one that saves me
You’re gonna be the one that saves me

Well, off to phuket soon (: The rest’re watching a movie now, went with them to eat lunch at waffletown after training heh. Oh and we ate chicken and waffles and onion rings! Plus the stuff from 7-11 and we finished a pack of ruffles really really quickly :/ Ahh kinda guilty but oh well. Parents’re trying to find out the time of our flight, they got confused, think they got it wrong. Haha wouldn’t it be amusing if we missed our flight? Still I’m rather irritated. Think the flight leaves at 9 but they tld me to be back early -.- Cld have watched the movie with the others. Man, she’s kinda kiasu -.-

Really tired now. But don’t feel like sleeping cause I havern’t finished any of the physical stuff. Pushups and all. Maybe i’ll sleep on the plane. I’m gonna look like an indian when I get back :/ sun, sun and more sun. My poor face heh. Ohwells hope I don’t grow too fat eating all the fried rice and tom yum goong there Oh and hopefully, the hotel im gonna stay in there has the same channels as the hotel I stayed in last december. There was loads of cool shows haha wish I had cable at home. Ohwells it’s okay I guess.

Gonna watch a video now! (: Three hours till nine. Heh my parents are damn smart la. -.- Getting me to rush back like that haha. Right then, take care you guys wish i cld have gone with you just now (: Tigger don’t worry too much, loosen up! Haha right g’bye!

So many things to do yet so little time. Ahh, I really need to improve and all but all the stupid tuitions and all are damn irritating. Plus I don’t have a court downstairs. Shit la, there’s so little time. And during recess, we hardly every play anymore. Just eat and eat. I’m not even reaching my goal of all the shots I planned to do. My shooting sucks la. So many things to practice and so little time. And now that bitch’s insisting that I come home early to study. Wth la. If they don’t stop pressurizing me to study and all, I’ll just stop studying altogether. There’s so little time, and I wanna get better really quickly. Sometimes I wish I could be like those girls the seniors were talking about, just play basketball all day. But that’d be stupid. Ahh my mind’s screwed up la. Think every wed I won’t study, i’ll just practice my shots. Okay now I feel better. Actually, if I can’t shoot at home, maybe i’ll do dribbling. Then every morning and recess shoot or play one on one. Mr teo’s right we can’t just rely on trainings. Trainings’s only for teamwork and stamina and all, not personal skills.Mm guess during recess most of us are hungry too. So maybe we’ll eat really quickly then go to the court. Or maybe I might just skip recess altogther. I swear, I’m gonna improve my shooting. No matter what it takes. That’s what i’m gonna focus on.

Okay well today had the basketball talk thing with mr teo. I know my weakness, and i’m gonna counter it. That’s why I need so much practice. SHOOTING SHOOTING SHOOTING. Yup that’s it. Well guess it’s okay now. I’m not gonna moan and wail that I ain’t good. Gonna practice and practice and practice. And even if i improve really slowly, i’ll be practicing. Man sometimes I think I’m too impatient. And my mental strength isn’t strong. I’m gonna have to be determined, and peservere through it all no matter how tired or hungry or anything. Yup that’s it. (: Okay now time for the pushups and jumps (: